Disappointed

I don't know if I should be happy, upset or angry.

I think I was secretly hoping that she would apologize so that I won't continue to hurt..

But what she just did hurt even more..

mmmm. Cai's right. I should stop trying to see the good in people because the more I try and hope, the more it hurts.

I wish things were different. I wish I don't get hurt so easily.

I thought we were friends?

I hate it when I feel so small...

Jo, Shiming, JH, Joy, YY, Claud, Freda, Angel, Cai...to everyone that cares. I'm fine.

It hurts to be torn apart by your loved one but I'll survive.

Don't we always pick ourselves up after a fall?

Today someone chided me.. something I appreciate

Don't sugar coat your words. Don't say things that make people happy. It isn't about making others around you happy. You have to think for yourself.

You're right. I shouldn't worry about hurting others because at the end of the day, both parties, you and I won't end up happy.

No one has ever told me to just be me and not worry about making the world happy.

I'm only one person..sometimes I feel so small..

I don't need to feel like that...

Thank you for being the most honest person, for knowing me better than anyone else.

I promise to be me.

:)

It's all so painful..

I want to leave all this behind.

People don't like her for a reason.

I don't too.

I trusted her for you, against all my instincts.

You protect her but not me.

It began with hurt but now it's resentment.

I'm not going to take this down for you. Not like the last time.

Not when it has been all about you.

It's time for me. I deserve to be selfish. For once, you should know how it is to be hurt by someone you love.

I'm tired of doing it your way.

Choose what you like..

I'm sick of hearing people saying I'm nice. Just because I'm nice, I have to bear it all.

To put my hand in yours, for you to guide me.. only to fall..

Hurt, bruised and battered.

It isn't going to be about you anymore..

The wages of gluttony

Through intensive experimentation, I gather that the wages of guttony is

CONSTIPATION

Especially if you're older and that your excretion system becomes inefficient.

I had a great b'day week and it was packed with the bestest best lunches and dinners. I think people like to feed me to much because my eyes light up when there is food and I transform into a happy person -- acute gluttonities syndrome

However! I think that the effects of becoming older by a year manifests in the efficiency of your large intestines. The muscles probably loosen over time.

-wails-

I think I will lose 4 kg once I finally clear my bowels.

For the last 5 days, I emptied fibre sachets in warm water for breakfast, hardly eat cause I feel so bloated, exercise for hours and I only consume my greens and fruits.

This is serious matter! If I don't excrete by Friday, I am going to the doctor to down laxatives and faint in the toilet from exhaustion!

On a positive note, I think I'll get a killer body and glowing skin once I do.

I should have a middle name..greedy.. Tye Greedy Grace..how apt!

In case I die from constipation, I just have to tell you all..every single one of you that I love you and that I would like to have humongous chocolate bars and all sorts of cheesecakes to accompany me in my grave.

Thank you all..I know you love me too!

XOXO,
constipated G

B'day dinner - My Terrific Thursday

I stuffed my face again on Thursday and it was with two very very special friends - Pris and Shiming!

And dinner wasn't the fishes..
tho they were HUGE!

-beams- introducing one of the best friends I've made in NUS - Shiming!

Shiming wore the shirt I chose for him when we went shopping! Yummy right? -grin- oooo and I wore my green dress I bought from the Scarlette!!!
This is Pris - a lethal combination of beauty and brains. Pris is a first class hons student, her credentials are lined with awards.. she plays one heck of a badminton game(she was my fellow sportsclass classmate back in my Anglican High School days) and she is getting more beautiful each day!
Picture taken with Shiming's long hand.. -grin-

We were so hungry, I forgot to take the picture of Tony Roma's World Famous Onion Loaf proper.. Eat first, picture later..haha
Appetizer sampler
Their famous ribs. I say it is a MUST to have it
and their Bayou chicken salad.. mouthwateringgood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is how you should eat your ribs..with your fingers.. because it IS THAT good!

It really is that good!
In my equation, a perfect dinner = great food, wonderful company + dessert!
Haagen Daaz for me please!
Pris's husband, Bran joined us at the end. Pris, you're one blessed girl.. Bran loves you so much!!
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B'day lunch with Chrissy and Xu Zi

Introducing my boys - Xu Zi and Chris, my fellow dancers who slogged hard with me for Impressario last year. The effort paid off cause we won the dance competition!! Catching up with the boys who graduated.
We had..... Uncle Sam's claypot rice!!!!!! It has been so long since I stuffed my face in the bestest best best claypot rice in sunny Singapore.
I find pleasure in food and so does Chris! No wonder we're friends!



Xu Zi's working at Ogilvy now and in the DHL team too! How coincidental huh! Went back for a short visit..

Isn't my dress pretty!!!!!! I got it from the Scarlette - blogshop of 3 hot HOT HOT girls - Ting, Mei and Amanda!

I met Sam! Traffic for Redworks at Ogilvy! Random thought - Grace hearts her dress!
With the security guard who still recognizes me! -chuckles- Very stern pose I must say... random thought again : I love my dress!
I had such a great time catching up with Chris that I couldn't bear to leave after lunch. We had dessert at TCC after sending Xu Zi back to work at Ogilvy :)

hahahha..my fav shot of the day..
I love the bad ass earring Chrissy!

Soozey, Chrissy, I have no idea what came into you boys.. such an INVERSE shot! ( inverse - a lingo understood by my loved ones only) ... but I still love you all the same!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you for making my Wednesday special!

Lovelove!

B'day dinner with the 2C2P boys

My 23rd birthday, what an incredible week. For the whole of last week (I'm really not exaggerating), I met up with different groups of friends for MASSIVE pigging out sessions. I have been so well fed that I'm down with acute constipation! -wails-

Other than my memorable surprise b'day party on Saturday and dinner with my family on Sunday, I had home-made bread pudding + apple cider(cause I don't drink) + roses + strawberries on Monday.

I spent my Tuesday with my favourite boys - the 2C2P gang over a simple dinner at PGP. I have never felt more loved by my project group mates! My entrepreneurial marketing people got me New York cheesecake while the 2C2P boys organised dinner at PGP. They bought the nicest Black Forest B'day cake, custom made a pinky card and got me -gasp- kinky children's playset - a nurse edition!

My camera battery died that night so I'm still waiting for the hilarious pictures we took - kinky nurse patient pictures.

These are the few that I took at the start of the dinner.

With YY - YY and Kanghao organised the dinner and took pains to secretly buy the cake and gifts. Boys, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. The simplicity of dinner despite your busy schedules made me go all warm and fuzzy but your efforts to do so much more for someone you just got to know mean so much so much more.

Jianxing and Shijun..
I love my greens!
I don't think I'm biased. I really got the best deal in class. Awesome guys who work so well together.
Pizza!!!!!!!!!

Darren and Jianxing. Jianxing says Darren looks like a player because he wears funky glasses. -grin- Well Darren does get his fair share of attention from girls but he's far from being a player. He is in fact, one of the most charismatic, yet real guy I know. He feels strongly about things and is never one to hold back on what he believes in.

My slice of cake.. I was glowing by then. I was so touched by their gesture!
I'm going to miss Shijun terribly. He is SUCH A NICE GUY!!!!!!!
YY - the kind of guy a girl would want to be with, stable, sincere, down to earth.. oh but he indulges in World of Warcraft.. be warned!

The most fashionable guy in the group. Kanghao, I love our narcissistic picture taking sessions!

Haha. Jianxing, your reputation is ruined!


The boys insist on this picture - represents the 9 of us!
After dinner, we went over for Waffles at the new cafe in PGP. Boys and pool tables..

versus boys and food counter.. I think the latter's more attractive -wink-

One last shot before we parted ways.

Will upload the cranky pictures when I get them from Darren!

To the 2C2P gang:

Guys, I never expected having the greatest time in TR3002 but I did. At the end of the day, it isn't about the grade but the sweetest, most enjoyable journey throughout the course. When I think of 2C2P, I think of our mass gossipy MSN sessions in class, our dynamic but fun project meetings, Jianxing and his BLJ stories, putting in all we've got before our final presentation to the VCs.

I think I'm the envy of all the girls in class, to be in the same group with the nicest people to work with.

Thank you for everything, including the endless teasing of Aung, lap dances..From the bottom of my heart, thank you for making my last semester in NUS special.. :)