Case of mistaken identity- by Grace Tye

-grin- I have an affinity for cheesy titles! I am so not creative. For those that know me, I think I am considered a little blur to them. Just a few days ago, I was embarrassingly friendly to a passer-by on my blog. I mistook him for a good friend of mine that I lost contact with sometime ago. He must think I'm a psychopath! Now, that's not much to laugh about. You will probably laugh at this.
Yesterday, I accompanied my Idol sister for her audition, hoping to drop a hardcopy resume on the production side of mediacorp. I was looking for an internship, not an acting role. There I was sitting in the office and I got an influx of scripts thrown at me to audition for. Before I could explain, they left me with dozens of scripts and told me they will be back by this time blah blah. Now, since I had nothing to do, I read the scripts, kaypoh kaypoh la...
Perhaps, my sister's friend thought I wanted an internship with acting?? oooOOo that's a good one cause the only perfect expression I can master occurs only when I need to visit the toilet urgently. I have a ohsoefficient system for excretion you see. Therefore, my good friends like Ting, manda and the a3 girls will know how often I need to well AHEM a day.
Anyways, back to my story. I landed a role. Two in fact..
role 1 - A full episode as the female lead - a teenage girl who got infected with HIV by her boyfriend (some reality TAB TV show)
role 2- A cameo in maggie and me ( some fiona Xie show) as a teenage girl again!

I think I have a knack at looking young, either that or my inner fountain of youth overflows onto my face. I was dressed in a pretty mini dress. I thought I looked my age! Plus the roles I had to audition for were like 20-30s of age. How embarrassing! Oh well but it was fun altogether. I only managed to clear the misunderstanding after the auditions. It was fun looking into the camera and being dramatic. wahhahhahha. Anyways, if i take up the role, I have to strut about in a bikini, get semi undressed, kiss a guy( who I don't know) and pretend I love him. Oh my gosh, if I manage to do that, I think I should get an Oscar. I really think so!!! Well anyways, would anyone like to audition for roles? I've got contacts with the production side. She gave me a card. Filming starts next Tuesdays so if you'l like to audition for my Oscar winning role and the hunky boyfriend, let me know. I'll be rooting you guys on TV. I won't laugh (that's a lie). Last audition will be this thurday. Let me know quick ya?

Lotsa love love
Oscar candidate, grace

Dog versus Dog

Having some time at hand these days. I'm looking for an internship and I do hope I get it soon. -sigh- I don't want my holidays to be just gymming away but to get a real good internship! I'm praying for it and I have faith that God will give me the best. Anyways, I found happy pictures online! Retriever pups that's so cute!!! My dreamdog... -wistful look- He looks like a sunshine, doesn't he? I'll call him sunshine!

He's a lighter shade. I'll call him snow!
ooOoooh I love this pic! Look at how chubby they are? They should be called Pilot and Major. Don't ask me why... I just spontaneously thought of it...

But my dreams are going to be shattered.. Louis is adamant on getting his DREAMDOG! The

BULLDOG! - sobs-

Though the pup is kinda cute.....

OooOOO I shall not be tempted! I want a retriever!!!! I better go practise my patheticwistfuluntilImightmiraculouslygetmydreamdog look! -grin-

WheeEeEE! My haven!

p.s As much as I love Jo's tight ass, I am not smelling it!

WheEeeeEEEeeeeEEE!!!!!!!

I had a lovely lovely lovely day! Louis went to new creation church with me today. Peihuan dear was still her cheerful, supportive and talkative self. She came early to keep us company at serivce today. Thank you so much dear! After church, Louis brought Jo and I to the pet farm at Pasir Ris. It's such a happyfuntakeawayallyourtroublesandsadness place! There are different breeds of all sizes running about happily. They interact with each other, play, jump into the pool, get baths, participate in mini games. All the pets win something at the end of the day. Pasir Ris pet farm is catered for dogs - a weekend thing for dog owners to bring their darlings to chill out and interact. We were there for an hour but time seemed to pass so fast! I didn't want to leave the dogs! I had so much fun interacting with the dogs, some being ultra friendly. We had to leave though cause we were rushing to support monster at his gig. My darling sister wanted to surprise monster and she did! It was sweet. All this couldn't be possible if it wasn't for you..the man behind all the hard work! -big big hug-

I felt loads better after yesterday's cry. You didn't need to take me to the pet farm but you did anyway! Thank you so much! I won't forget how sweet it is... Thank you everyone for caring... pok, for your e-mail. I miss talking to you..and I'm glad you're coming back in a few hours' time. Pei huan, thank you for simply being one of the best pals I've made in Uni life. All that raving about finding out perfect electric blue and cobalt blue dress! ( It's our favourite colour at the moment) By the way, if you see a gorgeous electric/cobalt blue dress that's absolutely gorgeous, please call me! I'm so into this season's colour.. bright, flattering and ohsotodiefor, this season's colour is a must have! it's flattering for Asians. I hope I can shop for an electric/cobalt blue mini toga dress (I'm fine with mini tube dresses or sundresses or mini spag dresses) as long as it's in the droolicious colour! Pei huan was saying she'll pair it with a black leather belt..but I think, paring it with a unique brown, vintage leather belt would be stunning. OooOOOOooo I just have to rave about it. I LOVELOVELOVE the combination of electric/cobalt blue with yellow.. so infectious! Time to shop ladies! I'm free this week! Oh I sound horribly carried away.. okay not sound but I AM... back to my almosttooperfect day..... awwwww here's more photos of the dogs!

Family time heals wounds..

I did a lot today. I woke up feeling disheartened but tried to mask it. I managed to meet Margie and could smile and talk. After she left, I was that zombie again. When Louis called, I tried to mask that sadness. The feeling of emptiness really went away after I broke down when I was at bedok interchange with him. I tried to express myself, told him I knew everything will be alright and I'm not going to give up that easily, but I also told him that getting by this period is so darn hard. just being able to manage this and cry made me feel so much better. We had a great time with my family. Mum called when we were out asking if we could have dinner together and we did. Dajie, Philip, Jo and I had a great time sharing embarassing childhood stories together. Family time heals wounds... I really love my family. God, please watch over my dear ones.. please let them stay happy. Louis, thank you for spending the day with me. Your little gesture really meant a lot. To people like jh, jereld, ting and jo...thank you for your encouraging comments. I can't express my gratitude in words. I will get by this period and it's because of people like you. I love you guys...

Dear Lord,
Thank you so much for making me feel better today. I know it wasn't by my strength but yours. Lord, please continue to watch over my loved ones, especially my family, monster, Louis, Ting, my ahs girls, jereld, Jh, Alvin and family and people that care. Please give them the peace and joy in their hearts. Thank you Lord.

Amen.

Thank you for caring

I read one of the comments on my blog, thank you JH for caring so much. I miss those times when I could open up and talk to you. I miss those supportive hugs as well... just want you to know that I still appreciate you lots... and that we have to keep in contact 100 years later? pls?

This is going to be another disheartening entry. I didn't do too well for my exams this time round and I've been trying to pick myself up again. Too many negatives this month. It helps having someone to talk to..but that person that I need right now isn't going to be around anymore. I'm so sorry...I can't help but cry as I type. I really want to pick myself up and stay confident. I just don't know how... it's so hard going out these days, putting up a facade, willing myself to believe I'm alright. I hit the gym for hours each day, read everything I can get, work on my interviews and internship..but in between those idle time, I fight the urge to cry.. I feel so drained. I wish you were here.... to knock some sense into me.

Someone once told me I seem a little void of emotions, never really talk about my problems.. as if the world's a perfect place. I know it isn't and I'm feeling really really lost. No matter how hard I try to talk to someone about it, I end up being the one cheering myself up, with ice cream and whatever I can get. I think it's the insane fear of affecting someone else. People tend to be affected by each other and I don't want to be the one to ruin the day. I watched pirates today.. but now that I'm alone again, I let my guard down and cry. I miss having the best listener around. The one who is never too tired or too busy to be there.. I miss you so much. Why, of all people... why do I have to love and lose?

I know everything's going to be okay. I tell myself to. It's just this period of confusion and change but it's so hard... I don't feel confident. I didn't want to go out but I told myself that I eventually have to. There's the terrible insecurity again.. I feel heartbroken.

Dear Lord,
I dedicate this prayer to you. Thank you for what I have to go through, in trials, I grow. I've put other things before you but I humbly come back to you. In times like this, when my loved ones cannot listen, I know you do. Please help me stay strong and give me the joy that I experienced when I came to know you. Please remind me of the confidence I should possess because I'm your precious child. Thank you for treasured ones like Pei huan, JH, Caleb and Jas for reminding me of you. Please fill this emptiness I have in my heart.

Thank you Father. I commit my life into your hands. Amen.

I will not live an aimless life.... I have to pick myself up again..no matter how hard it is. To all who are going through difficult times right now, hang in there. The Lord loves you. You're not going through pain alone and you're not the only one... stay strong..

Teary eyed post...

It's 1 30 am and I'm about to turn in now. Just cut diced a few onions and boy do they make me tear terribly. Onions...you are my enemy! I miss my protective superpoweredupgear... my goggles from Science lab. To think I used to complain how geeky I look with those huge fly-like goggles. I wish I wore my swimming goggles when I sliced the onions! I forgot how sensitive my eyes are...grrr... anyways, here are more photos from Bali! They make me smile..i hope they will make you smile too! I feel so much better and stronger after sobbing for a few days. I will be strong!!!! Oops before I get carried away..I better turn in now... making a special breakfast for someone dear tomorrow. -smiles happily- Goodnight world!

Two days after I heard the dreadful news. I've been bawling like a baby. My eyes are terrible tired from crying but I still miss you lots. I miss the times we had sinful buffets together. Everything reminds me of you now. I wish I had someone I can talk to, fully open up to about your loss but it's too painful. There's just no one comparable to how I connect to you right now.. I am a lucky girl. Of all the girls in the world, you waited for me. I miss you so much now. I'm going to dance again.. tomorrow. I WILL make it. I will put in my best for tomorrow.. I miss you..

I wasn't prepared for it. I'm still not ready to accept the reality. To lose you just after you called me 3 days ago and laughed at my acute food poisoning diagnosis. You said I was the most adorable girl and that you have and will not stop loving me. I feel wretched. A part of me is torn. Shadows seem to cling when I try to break out of this sad zombie state. I loved you more than I told you and I should have told you. My foolish pride and loyalty.. you were more to me than a dear friend. You were full of life, full of passion. You were one of the few that understood what it is like to love something and you had the courage to pursue it. Time and time again you told me you would take my hand and never let it go but I never had the courage to place mine in yours. The last time I met you, you looked healthy, handsome and ever so charismatic in that stylish shirt and jeans. That would always be how I would remember you. It's so painful to lose. You taught me once that we all give and take in situations but how can I take losing you in my stride? You would probably tell me that this would make me stronger but I don't want to be stronger at the expense of losing you. I want you to be here, to give me the advice amazes me at your age, to surprise me with my favourite things, to go on dates with your gorgeous get-ups. I want to compliment your style and you tease me and ruffle my hair. It's so unfair... why you... not you, please tell me someone made a mistake...

Back from paradise

I'm back from Bali! I have so much to share and loads of pictures to show off..-gushes- Bali is such a gorgeous place. It's blessed with dream-like beaches and humongous land for spacious restaurants and shops. One week in bali seemed to just whiz by.. This is going to be a uber long post..bear with me!

At the airport, all ready and excited!

We left on Thursday and arrived at around 11pm. Meet up with Tove, Per, Sverker and some of their Swedish friends at Hook's ( a pub). Pity I didn't take any pictures of my sun kissed and sun-burnt friends! Day 2 was more exciting. Louis and I spontaneously decided to head over to a famous temple -Uluwatu. Travelling by cab was pretty expensive and we didn't bring sufficient cash that day and thank God I met Handi! It was such a surprise! He was in Bali with his family for a short holiday. Swayed by how handi recommended us to watch the Balinese dance at Uluwatu temple, Louis and I spent the remainder of our cabfare on the tickets to the dance. It was definitely worth it. Though I love hip hop, I do have a passion for other genres of dance. Balinese dance is expressionless but it reaches out to the audience through controlled graceful movements with beautiful lines. Handi's dad is such a nice man.. he not only gave us a lift back to our hotel but he brought us to Jimbaran to have famous seafood! I'm not one for seafood but I loved every bit of the yummylicious seafood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you Handi... and especially to your parents. By the way, handi's dad also told us that if you ever visit Bali, you HAVE to stop by Jimbaran for seafood or you'll be laughed at. It's the equivalent of visiting Sentosa if you're in singapore I suppose.. -grin-

We stayed in Kuta, a more commercialised town area of Bali. The first few days were a little overwhelming. It was not like your average idea of a holiday where you're surrounded by sun, sand and the sea and with simple Balinese earning a living. In fact, you'll be bugged by cab drivers almost every 100 metres and approached by street vendors( and even drug traffickers!) -gasp- . Sometimes they offer you Marijuana blatantly, others use sophisticated codes like magic mushroom ( If Louis didn't tell me what it was, I might have actually asked for it! I like mushrooms!) .. kinda scary at the beginning. However, after a few days, we actually got used to it. The trick was to be firm with saying no and refuse politely. ooOOOoo! I so forgot to mention this incredibly scary incident. Louis went to exchange currency and this guy performed a HAT TRICK! He actually managed to pull it off and it was a substantial sum! Thank God I recalled what Qinmei said about her experience at Bali with the conman when she tried to exchange currency. Qinmei, thank you! The issue was resolved after Louis went back to confront the man. Miraculously, he refunded the money. Dearie... you must have looked super tough! -chuckles-

The beach at Kuta is my favourite. Though a tad bit crowded, it was perfect for jogging by the sea (you see many joggers) and it had a gorgeous sunset. The waves in Bali are a lot bigger than Singapore's. They engulf you and the drag's really HUGE! I lost my balance several times at dreamland beach. Dreamland's more for surfers. It was hilarious watching girls trying to get by the waves. The boys generally succeed but not many. Louis was like this little boy, all geared up and jumped HEROICALLY into the waves. -grin- Nusa dua beach was pretty nice too. It was a lot quieter over there, ideal for R&R. The beach was a little dirty though..due to water sports i guess. It wasn't exactly twig-free like Kuta and Dreamland beaches.

Kuta beach

Sunset at Kuta beach

Nusa Dua and dreamland

Hotel hopping.. the resorts in Bali are really astounding. They're spacious, superbly well furnished and they're exactly like what you would picture a 5 star resort/hotel to be like. Their prices are also really reasonable. If you're not on a tight budget, splurge a little on the accommodations. You won't regret it..but then again if you are on a budget, you can always hotel-hop. It's really easy to walk into a hotel to use their pool and facilities in Bali. -grin-

Diving at the Tulumben shipwreck was an eye-opener. You get to see huge schools of fishes, many different species. The shipwreck itself was a delight itself. It kinda reminded me of Pirates of the Carribean. OoooOOO I would love to have a pirate like johnny depp to rescue me -sighs dreamily- .Anyways, though our instructor Chris was more than adequate at his job and that diving at Tulemben was lovely, I think taking a dive course abroad isn't really worth the money spent. Out of four days, only one day was spent at a real touristy dive site, while the other closed water dives were just practice. The amount we paid for the dive alone was sufficient to cover the cost of an open water course in Singapore AND dive trips to Malaysia...accomodation etc provided. Therefore, it was a pity, cause the amount we spent restricted the cash we had to sight-see..

Chris, our instructor

My all time favourite place visited was to Tanah Lot, temple by the sea. It was GORGEOUSBEAUTIFULINDESCRIBABLE.... oh I loved loved loved the view...