Feeling kind of down today. Looked at endless list of things to complete before I fly off next Thursday to Indonesia and mustered up whatever courage I had to start revision. My term break will be shuffling in between dance practices, project meetings and revision for my test. I think I might just camp over at Bizad canteen ;)

The girls are all out today. I guess it's cause term break's approaching. I'm happy for them. Claud stayed up the night before with me to complete her hand-made gift for her boyfriend. Freda stayed up last night to mug for her test today. Angel and Grace are at class right now.

There are times when I feel uncertain about the future. I'm about to graduate and embark on the final phase of growing up. Career choices. I'm frightened of growing up.

I spent the last 3 hours in the safe refuge of my room,shutting out the world, reading, planning for the next few days and committing the rest of my time in prayer. I felt a sense of peace, an assurance. It isn't the same when you hear from others assuring that you've got what it takes to make it. I think the bottomline is that I've been so caught up in the whirlwind of busyness, that I've put God in second place. I miss Him.

Whenever I'm down, I turn to blogging. It feels really good to pen down my thoughts and I suddenly have the urge to go for a long run since I have 1.5hours before Justis's dance prac at 9pm. Things always brighten up after a good run and an undisturbed sleep.

On a happier note, I'm meeting Shiming and Pris again on Friday! I had the most wonderful lunch with them last Wednesday, before V'day. Shall put up the pictures and blog about it tomorrow!

I don't have much of V'day pictures except that I cut my hair. It's really short now and I have bangs! I'm still trying to get used to it because I gave my hairstylist the greenlight for EXTREME change!

I'm happy for everyone else that enjoyed their V'day. I saw how my little sister enjoyed hers, the girls on A3 got lovely presents! Orchard was really crowded that day. Couples were strolling hand in hand.

I wonder why Singaporeans are generally so cynical towards V'day? It hurts to hear that it's a day where stupid men get conned into buying expensive flowers and dinner. Yes it's commercialised, but so is Christmas and New Year's Eve and even our birthdays.

V'day to me is beyond commercialism. It's a special day where you put in a little more effort to shower love to your treasured ones. It doesn't have to be complicated or expensive, just thoughtful. "Everyday should be like V'day". It's true but too idealistic. We get so caught up with schoolwork, with work. To be honest, I believe that V'day exists for a reason. We can't surprise our loved ones everyday with cards, or flowers. Romance tends to the thin side when we're working and put in a foul mood because of heavy workload. I wish we can all just see beyond the cynicism.

The simple lunch with Shiming and Pris over at sushi tei made my day and it just made me more determined to make an effort to meet them after I graduate. I really appreciate how Shiming plans our meet-ups. It takes time and effort to plan something and I will not take him for granted.

Till Friday :) -hugs-

P.S. If you're reading this, I just want to say I'm blessed to have a friend like you :)